from now..

ok.. i don wanna post in details about the camps le.. lol.. just that, both GYL and DTRM CAMP was a blast and i really enjoyed it.. make lots of friends and know a lot more ppl.. lol.. just finished my facils camp and now, currently waiting for cruise trip this coming sunday..

been thinking through my own stuff now.. seems like life's revolving around camps.. i need to get a life! but thats only possible after next week.. so its still on hold, oh well.. no choice than..

it seems like whichever way i turn, its staring me right in the face.. and i don understand.. whats so fascinating about it.. that people are always searching constantly for it.. and even when they found it.. they will be so helpless to do anything about it.. afraid that whatever they do.. its the wrong thing.. whats my option now.. to go forward or stay.. for i really don noe.. and it seems like.. its gonna tear me up one of this day.. i really hope that answers will present themselves.. and i can find the correct solution.. i hope, i wish.. that things will turn out fine..

and its true what my elders say, what my seniors say.. now than i understand what those sad love quotes mean..
"The hardest thing to do, is watch the one you love, love someone else"
"When i see you smile and know that its not meant for me, thats when i miss you the most"
"While i was holding on, all you did was let go"

its all true, :D

dreams

its been donkey years since i dreamt of something, especially after coming back from a camp.. whats going on inside here?

BUSY

promise to update soon!! for now, some pics of my two camps,

when u smile, it lights up my day

laziness!

i'm super lazy to post on the GYL camp and DTRM camp now.. will do it by this weekend i guess.. lol..

for without a doubt, u have captured my heart

push to the limits

if every single time its to be like this, than i rather remain silent, when i do my best, there's always the push to do even better, when i commit a mistake, there's always the harsh words and the scoldings to look forward to, where's the innocence that youth are suppose to have? in the race to become independant and to ensure that we will be better, is human compassion sacrificed? what must we do to make sure that its never lost?

if you rather i spent my days hanging around, and doing nothing, than just tell me straight.. why do i need to strive so hard? The work that i do, its only a temporary relief to ensure that i can get back every month.. where did all the love go?

silently screaming, its getting harder to concentrate..

a fairytale ending

everyone hopes to have a fairytale love story, u meet the girl of your dream, she likes you too and you two ends up getting married and live happily ever after. who doesnt wish for this kind of love?

reality seems to be a contradiction to the stories we read, so many questiong souls, when do we know it will be our turn? and just something more to think about, is all these even worth all the hype?

before the light goes out

woke up in the morning due to a call,

Ms Sue Pang: hello tony, this is your ITB lecturer.. the file that you have saved inside Ameer's disc isn't there. You need to come down to school today to meet me and pass me your file. It must be by today as i want to finish everything by today..
Tony: huh??? who are you?
Ms Sue Pang: Melvin need to meet me too, so you two meet up and than give me a call, i live near dover so when you guys reach, call me and i will come down.. thats all, bye..
Tony: bye

and fell back to my sleep.. woke up like 1 hour later and gave a call to melvin, finally realise what that call was about and arrange to meet him at two pm.. got up and started making calls to DBF class Chair.. settled the MAD camp stuff in the end.. washed up and went out to meet Melvin, after meeting Ms Pang, went mambo to play pool with him.. spent like one hour there before heading over to the gym.. got home like 3 hours ago, had my dinner and here i am now typing..

like lazy saturdays like these.. though it wouldnt be like this from monday onwards..

if his that bad, why do girls still like him? why do girls fall head over heels to get close to him.. the experiences of those before u, doesnt count for anything at all? and now that u finally have him, why are you complaining, isn't all these what you wanted? Isn't all these going the way you hoped it would..

the search for the reason why, will end only when she's ready to answer..

it is better to have love and lost, than to have never love at all

is that true?? wondering about that sentence ever since someone said that to me a few days back.. it seems that most people would rather let the opportunity slip by, than take steps to ensure that they don miss out..

how many of us guys, can honestly say that even though we really want to know that particular girl, but we are so afraid of rejections that we will just stand there silently and just watch.. never mind that once she's gone, she's gone forever.. is it our own sense of unworthiness, that the girl will just reject us? who's to know what may happen??

oh well, that's just some thoughts that's running through my head after hearing that phrase.. these past few days was busy.. arranging for work, settle the SLAP programme and my Sb club side.. but enjoyed myself thoroughly.. especially with the Sec 1 sl's.. they are a bunch of nice kids.. hope Jennifer and me can teach them correctly the essential skills that they are gonna need in the future..

i'm back from training like 2 hours ago, body aching.. sparred with sir nas just now, but his punches are too fast for me, could only block his kicks and get some of my own in.. oh well, got to train more..

whatever it takes, whatever u do, whatever u think, all i ask is, what right do u have to judge who i am, what I'm worth, what my thoughts are, what my action proves, what i do is what i am, I'm just a normal guy living his life the way he wants.. lying down under the velvety sky staring into the fathomless night and imagining what life will be like in the future?