Mentally Drained

Tired. Thats the way i feel now. Goodnight World.

Emo Post

When things fall apart, what do you do?
A: Put them back together.

When they fall apart a second time, What do you do?
A: Glue them back together.

The Third Time?
A: Look for the cause of it and eliminate the problem.

The Fourth Time?
A: I Dont Know

Laughter

If all else fail, smile. :D

Aching Mouth and Body

Long Day today.. 10am to 6pm. was kinda drained by then. had my gems test in the evening. not sure if i screwed it up. :P

As usual, had lots of laughter with my classmates.. especially pei ying. She finally revealed her true colours today. Now my whole class knows about her, right pei ying! :P

going to finish up my blaw and than go to sleep. Till next time..

Some things are best left unsaid

Fruitful Day

Woke up early in the morning and went to school. reached at 11am and saw zh and sl. lol, studied with them and manage to get into the study mood. First class was IHRO. Seriously whats happening to all the lecturers? Not seeing her for 3 weeks and she's a totally change person. Couldnt get any info from her with regards to the upcoming MSTs.

Oh well, cant be bothered. Anyway, its confirm that DTRM Camp will be a 2 Day 1 Night affair. Cant be too bothered or what to argue more for it. Shall make do with what is given already. Hope everything will run smoothly, thats all..

Oh yeah, in FMAH class today. Linus, ZH and Nigel was being super random and asking me about relationship stuff. Within the two hour we manage to cram a piece of paper with all of the nonsensical questions. Quote of the day was "Want woo jiu woo, dont ever regret. Thats the thing." Its quite true anyway. whats the point of looking back when u are 5 years older and start thinking to yourself. What if i had taken that step last time?

FBM Project is a chore, glad that my group was efficient and managed to finish everything up sans mine and nigel's own reflection. Got to hand it to shannon for being super efficient. Thanks yeah!

Now, there's 3 more projects. lets hope everything will be settled asap. MSTs are coming up, got to concentrate and see what can be done. Not been in the best of condition the past few weeks. Hope that everything will turn out fine!

Lastly, went to island cremary with yuduan today. Super random. Ran finish around school, came back, slack in clubhouse for close to one hour. and she decided to kidnap me and go there. -_-, nevertheless, it was refreshing to talk to her. lol, see her so ke lian cant even walk properly after her 25km run last sat so accompanied her home. "Lets go makan some other stuff sometime yeah"

Shoutouts!

ZH: Believe in yourself yeah!

Linus: Go for it lah. Dont shy shy le

Nigel: Talk more can!

DTRM 04: Look out for the chalet in Sep yeah

U: dont so blur le can

yu duan: Sleep more lah!

thats all i guess. Need to go complete my FBM tutorial, finish the FBM report than read a bit of my gems note for the test tomorrow. Hope it will be ok! :D

Live and enjoy the moment

Tired

2am in the morning.. and i'm still wide awake.. so what happen to my first weekend back in singapore after johor?? woke up at around 11, bath, change and went out of my house. realized that i spend quite a lot of time in stadiums nowadays..

anyway, before i forget.. there's several ppl that i wanna give a shoutout to.. first of all!

Jenn Zhuang! when will u be free uh?? busy women leh.. shift to west coast become even busier le! what is this!

Yu Duan, Movie together sometime soon k.. sorry for being so busy myself.. Take care of ur own health ok!

Xue Li, hey.. will find time to meet up soon k!

kanasai! take care lah.. haiyoyo.. ur health is important de!

Talk to some ppl today.. saw how strong an emotion can cause someone to act. that is something that i can respect

and to end of this post, a question to myself. how much more can my body take before i fall?? hmm.. shall see when is the limit..

In Love, its either you love, or you dont.
Thats what the old ah mah and ah pek always tell us youngsters.
But,
how do we know what is the correct choice to make to make the person happy?

Diary

Shifting over to write in my diary for now.. some things are meant to be kept in the heart

Settled

Just finish playing mahjong.. lost $6.40, oh well, win some days and lose somedays.. thats how life is..

Speaking about life, i guess that my life has really shook itself up and everything has change since last year. Last year this time i was at Takashimaya working and waiting for my results. There was also the fear of her.. but now, everythings change. Life has to go on..

To you girl, i dont know what game is being played here, but i hope.. that things can work itself out.

"I have neither looks nor riches, all i can promise you is my heart. Will that be enough for you?"

hmm..

tears

tears streaming, wipe them away? or leave them be?

Life Path's

Happy bday to both linus and faizah.. hope u two enjoyed today..

Left or Right, Up or Down, Stop or Move.. whats the correct answer?

sad stories

been hearing too much sad stories nowadays.. making me think back i guess.. to everyone and everything that happen, life goes on.. thats the only thing that we can look forward too

sleep

breath.. relax.. smile.. and everythings ready!

because of you

was prepared for this luckily.. if not i would have become speechless.. its one thing to know that what you had suspected all along was true.. another thing to know that its the truth..

maybe all they have said is true, it just doesnt pay to know too many things.. cause somethings, it will come back and haunt you de.. all thats left now is the MSTS.. and than i can throw myself into planning my events..


because of you i never stray too far from the sidewalk
because of you i learnt to play on the safe side so i dont get hurt
because of you i try my hardest to forget everything
because of you i dont know how to let anyone else in

its true what people say, because of just one person.. an entire life can be changed.. can be transformed but whether its good or bad.. that remains to be seen.. heard too many stories and now.. its time to look back at what we have done so far..

World's End, what to do?? LOL

Caught this movie yesterday with Zheng Hui, Linus and Nigel.. Found it quite meaningful and touching.. when the world is ending.. what are we all left with? The phrase that stuck with me "When we stop fighting for humanity, thats when we lose our humanity". Its true i guess.. recent events that happened has make me rethink of the way i treat people around me.

Maybe its just me, but i guess that i'm feeling a bit ashame of myself for treating her this way. If only we had tried harder, if only we didnt stop trying, maybe things wouldnt have come to this? To make a person feel lonely when he or she is surrounded by people is a very sad and wrong thing to do. Are we considered a better person, just cause everyone around us is ok with us and our way of behaving? Yes, he or she might have some flaws but dont all of us have?

Its too late to do anything now, just take it as a lesson learnt for me. A wake up call to myself to treat everyone the same no matter what they are like. :D

Anyway, back to the movie, it was really great! got me thinking about how we should behave as a leader, a citizen, and last of all, A HUMAN. And of course, the love story that goes on inside the story is a reminder to myself that life is SHORT. Live each day as it is and dont ever regret for anything. For all those who are always wondering should i ask him/her out, go ahead and do it. You will never know what might happen tomorrow!

So, a checklist for myself:

1. Dont regret no matter what i do.
2. Strive my best in both my studies and my life.
3. Be happy always.
4. Quickly find my soulmate i guess?

And lastly, hope that the FOC will go well next year..

"If there is one thing i have ever learn in my life, it is that LIFE GOES ON"

strong?

if life was easy, wouldnt it be happier?


sticks and stone cant break me but words can cut me to shreds.
if i dont care, what will the world turn into.
if i didnt do all these, than its my fault again.
why cant you seem to understand,
the things i do, i do them for a reason.
"fuck care them", thats what you say.
but if i really did that,
that wouldnt be me anymore right.
so what if i'm on the school honour roll,
when you dont even bother to ask about it.
ever since i make this decision,
u couldnt be less bothered anymore.
i'm already trying my best,
but is it enough to win just a bit of approval.
"check your attitude, its getting from bad to worst"
why am i always the one getting all these?
is any of the things i do wrong at all?
trying to do my best,
to give my all,
to care.
whats wrong with being this way?
now do u ever wonder,
why am i out of the house so much?
why do i love going to camps?

heart talk

Listen to your heart

when she's calling for you.

Listen to your heart

there's nothing else you can do.

I don't know where you're going

and I don't know why,

but listen to your heart

before you tell her goodbye.

guess thats whats in my heart now?

masks

its getting dumber and dumber.. -_-, whats wrong with my head!!

98324853

who's willing?

sometimes, somewhere

front to back or back to front.. white or black or in between.. yes or no or i dont know.. sometimes, its easier to be indifferent.. if only the world is simpler.. if only everyone dared.. if only things are much clearer..

when its only murky darkness that i see.. when there's total darkness in everything.. where's the hope for a better tomorrow?

is it that hard? or is it my own weakness? i don noe.. when the hope's too high, the fall will be high too..