mutterings of the heart

My Cousin Victor, My Sister Linda and Me!

Took this pic last saturday, saw shaula at the dinner too.. its been one week plus since i last updated my blog, busy with presentations, now there's just one more presentation left and than everythings done for this semester except for the module exams..

nothing much happen this week, except for the usual stuff, school and gym..

Went back to TSS today with Jennifer, talk and manage to see the sec 1s, seriously dont recognise any of them except for sharlene, sat in the office and tried my best to study, didnt work out, after that, went to play bball. Feels good to play after so long, SS and Mr Wan also came along and play, had fun, :D

got home and bath, ate my dinner and now here i am, blogging once more..

No matter how things turn out, how people always seem to be judging you, stand firm, look into urself, and know your own worth. Dont let others influence you or cloud your judgement. Be confident of your own stand, and everything will be alright.

Dont attempt to know more for sometimes, knowing more can be a curse. Dont wait for things to happen, make things happen. For sometimes, if you miss the opportunity, its gone forever. And all thats left is regret. You will never know what might have happen, what could have happen. All you will know is what did not happen.

Maybe its just the facts of life,

that its harder to gain,

than to lose,

life is such..

tired out

RWPS presentation was a hassle, but at least its all over now, so gotta wait for results only, next up is EC and ITB, than its time to concentrate on the exams.. dread it..

its funny how thinkings and thoughts change, how the spirit and the will of a person can change over time, how things can get to the state where everything feels surreal, its been a long time since all these was here..

night world, i'm tired. from ___

stanza for the day:

its always the case,
when the one for u,
walk away from u,
and u feel,
as if the sun has gone out forevermore..

reminiscing, whats the next step?

No pics for this post, gonna blog about the past few days and all the crazy/random thoughts running through my head..

two days ago was the talent-time finals night, everything went as smoothly as it could, though there were communication problems within the committee... the event kicked off at around 6.25pm but it ended at the estimated time of 8pm.. congrats once again to everyone who participated and especially to the champions of each category, fauzianna and renjie..

before each performer went up, i was at the backstage with them, tried my best to encourage each and everyone of them, especially Alyssa, she look especially worried, and keng lim had to go and give her the idea to pierce me with her fingernails, -_- oh well, in the end she won second place so congrats too!

cleared up and had a debrief at the clubhouse, i carried the damm keyboard all the way back to moberly and it was super heavy! almost died, lol, lucky i didnt drop, than our debrief, it was short as everyone was rushing home to complete projects and study..

enjoyed myself tremendously in this event, the competition may be over but the memories of this event will stay in everyone's heart forever, :D

yesterday lesson was a waste of time, went school in the morning for ITB, the lecturer taught for ten mintues, tell us she finish already, and left us to do our own project, lol.. wasted my time away as my group member wasnt there and i didnt feel like doing, went to tekong island after that, real eye opener, saw how the recruits train and how they live, two years plus later will be my turn, lol..

carried the SAR 21 rifle, surprisingly, even though they said that it's around 4kg, it feels the same as my laptop weight, even my classmates say so too, lol.. after that, went back to the mainland and went to gym with nigel, went home after that and now i'm here..

had a chat with nigel, and i was enlightened, lol.. but at the same time, questions pop in too..

no matter what, shall keep on hoping, for the day that this wall will crumble, and what i find on the other side, shall be something more than now..

Stanzas for the day:
Love starts with a smile,
Grows with a kiss,
and ends with a tear

movie, talk, thoughts

Went out to see GI JOE: Rise of the Cobra, nice show! Cool weaponry though, make me think if i should just join the army next time and don need worry abt finding jobs already.. went out with yu duan, lol, was late in meeting her, sorry abt that! she had to wait for me but she went shopping, so no time wasted, XD

reached le went makan first cause movie was at 4.20pm, lol, the movie was two hours long! my butt almost sprain, i'm use to standing and not sitting, -_- after that, we were on our way home, managed to convinced her to take to joo koon and back again, lol.. as usual, talk and chit chat our time away, nothing much happen though, jus the chit chat session causing me to rethink my stand on some stuff,

its been ages since i have felt this way, the helplessness to do anything at all,
from today onwards, going to share a quote/poems with everyone,

Someday someone might come into your life and love you the way you've always wanted.
If your someday was yesterday, learn.
If your someday is tomorrow, hope.
If your someday is today, cherish.

and i'm wondering, when is it my day?

those days..

for those were the days that make life happy...

today totally went to class and waste my time there, RWPS was supposed to be doing some reflection thing but since the teacher didnt remember to take out the disc from her laptop, and she didnt bring the laptop, me and tianwei couldnt do.. -_-,

after school discussed abt the ITB project.. headache, don noe wat to do sia, topic so big, hai yo.. met yu duan and went running around gombak area... quite nice, ran for one hour.. while wating for bus talk with her, lol.. no please, me and her is impossible de, -_-

do you know what it feels like loving somone and see them rush to threw u away?

do you know what it feels like to be the last one, to know the lock on the door has change?

old song, but wonderful sentences, that can describe wat anyone is feeling anytime,

and its true, the old saying,

if you are questioning if you like someone,

u have already fallen in love with that person..

and i wonder why..

cough, go away lah! i don like u, :(

Nice right, my Art Work! :D

MAD!!! (Adeline's Design, nice nice?)

Its been a while since i have updated this blog, busy with talent time, why are you people pulling out? now its so much easier for the rest to go into the finals, no fun liao.. no matter what, the show must go on..

die, my september holidays are gone, lol.. 3 MAD camp, 1 GYL camp, 1 DTRM Camp, 1 Cruise Trip... oh well, cant complain, this is what i sign up for.. hope that there's time left over to work only..

seems like mask is gonna be what i get, need to get my feel back and learn to look deeper, look underneath and not be fooled by the different layers, else, all i get is heartache.. no matter what, old friends are still the best, for ppl like them, u can talk and talk and they will understand...

there's going to be a CA2 test later on, hope that i can score.. dead for the day, gonna sleep now,

P.S: the main library is cool! Jenn, u can do it de, i'm morally supporting u, lol...

a thousand different masks,

which to peel,

which to show,

but where's the real you?

complains

its just a simple thing, whats wrong with it, may i ask, if thats the case than i really don noe what to say, something doesnt conform and i'm make to take the fall, wat kind of logic is this.