life

for no matter what, its all been said and done. nothing anyone say or do would make a difference. the words said, the actions taken, its all set in stone. no one would be able to make a difference. when it all comes down to the end, each and everyone of us would walk our own path, no one would be able to comprehend what is going on in each others life and this, this is what is meant by the last mile home.

SUNDAY and SATURDAY

TRAINING WAS TORTUE. As usual, Mr Alex killed me with his training.. lol.. after that went swimming for awhile to cool down.. was super tired after that.. whole body aching like mad.. went home after eating and have been fiddling with my com ever since..

Sarturday night went to the the airport to sent Jon Tee home. his flying off to france for his culinary class.. would see him again in september.. oh well.. shermond,nicholas c, rayney, yan hui, nevin, noel, ms chai, elton and me were there to sent him off.. after that, board the mrt and we had fun teasing each other after not meeting up for so long.

tested each other mental power and most of us suck.. lol.. couldnt figure out those riddles.. lol.. but at least we had fun!

TKD, Training,School

Training was tiring.. kee chen came! lol.. spur with him.. need to improve my apeed to catch him.. oh well... whole body was aching like mad after that.. luckily parents came and fetch me after that...

School in the morning was boring as usual.. i slept through half the PACC lecture.. the lecturer was constantly repeating himself like mad.. so jus fall asleep.. stats was ok.. but Dr JAYA was going through the things tat he taught us in class.. so jus revise again..

nothing much to do in school nowadays.. ONOW was fun as usual.. planned a video with the class, super funny.. lol.. group project is still undecided.. waiting for the group to decide.. either childcare center or my school... lol.. i'm fine with anything..

HOMEWORK: ECONS TUTORIAL, PACC, TUTORIAL/ E-TUTORIAL, ITB, STATS TUTORIAL, GGT NOTES REVISION..

last night details

No homework for yesterday.

Now bored like mad... ITB lesson.. lecturer pratteling on.. wan sleep..

late feelings

they say that its never too late to do what u want to do.. to think of what u want to do.. to choose to do what you want to do.. but of all these.. what would happen if it comes to feelings? is it too late to feel the way we do.. to noe that we cant choose when the feelings would strike us?

love,loneliness, fear, happiness and sadness, these are just some feelings that we encounter daily.. that we must master and overcome.. that make us who we are.. that defines why we do certain things.. its certainly something that tells us what to do..

rationale thinking might help us cut through the middle.. but the result of these.. would be a decision that is filled without feelings.. and that.. would in turn hurt us even more.. so what does it mean, to choose feelings over critical thinkings.. to do things for the sake of what we feel rather than wat we think. does that bring us down to the level of an animal? curious indeed..

homework.. SB Club.. life

HOMEWORK: ITB CHAPTER 4, ONOW REPORT, POA E TUTORIAL

had my SB club meeting today.. it was quite.. interesting.. not going to say anything as of now.. lol.. would wait and see.. everything would be revealed 2mr..

early in the morning had group meeting.. shared with each other on what we found up to now.. and started on the Slides for the main GGT lectures.. at least finished up all these.. oh well..

next was POA tutorials.. the teacher is getting irritating as the day pass.. maybe its jus my mood or is it him? i don noe.

than ITB, finally learn something new.. now i understand how everyone feels... lol... it was fun though.. the challenge.. hope that the next lesson would be better..

tats all.. talkin with B now.. she's interrogating me.. -_-

stormy winds,
dark clouds,
its time to rise,
from all these..

HOMEWORK, Cca.. class

HOMEWORK: POA Tutorial 4, STATS tutorial 2, GGT/RWPS Project, ONOW Project

Decisions have been make, and there's nothing that i can do already.. would jus wait for everything to reveal itself. and than i would decide once more.. only thing is.. i don noe if whatever i decide, would be the best decision. but thats the price that everyone struggles with, and so i shall too..

CLASS T-SHIRT. Most of the people in class have indicated their interest. So now, need to see which other classes would be interested. If we can get a large enough order.. the prices would become cheaper.. and that would benefit everyone in the end..

ITB 2mr would be my first real test.. got to see if i can keep up.. oh well.. And i have a SB club meeting 2mr.. hoping that things would turn out fine.. lol.. looking forward to a camp in tanglin next week..

It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves.. - William Shakespeare

SPSU, Homework and Decisions

HOMEWORK: Econs tutorial, POA tutorial, GGT Research, RWPS Background Info research "Profile of Tourists"

School was super slack today, didnt have much stuff to do. GGT tutorial was spent listening to the presentation on China. Wat turn me off was the RWPS. The tutor's voice was like totally screwing into my head. She's like talking and talking and repeating a lot of stuff. And sometimes, the stuff she said don really make sense.. and make the entire class confuse.. -_-

After school went to look at the CCA fair. And thats when major headaches started. Walk around the entire place. There was a hundred and one place to look at and i didnt noe wat to join. Was tempted by the Changi youth ambassador and SPSU. I'm already in SB exco le.. but still.. i wan to join more things.. haiz.. don noe if i would be able to handle everything.

The SPSU interview was a bit freaky. There was like two fans blowing directly at me. Make me feel so cold loh.. and its like.. almost all the departments each had their own questions to ask. Though i indicated that i was interested in the HR department only.. lol.. they ask things like case scenerios and how would we response and all that loh.. answered the best that i could. results would be out next tuesday at 5.30pm.. they say that they would announce it so that means i have to be there physically.. oh well, don noe if i would get in and even if i get in, i don noe which post i would be in.. shall see when the time comes..

sometimes,
the things that we hope for,
would come to pass,
and things that we don hope for,
wouldnt come to pass..

HOMEWORK.. and more

ECONOMIC = TUTORIAL 3
STATS = SPSS THING, LABORATORY EXERCISE 2

Ok, i think thats all for homework..

Was quite a short day today.. there was a three hour break in between our lesson so the class guys all went laning.. in the end.. we were later for our lectures and had to rush back.. oh well.. learn abt SPSS in stats class today.. it was quite interesting.. something like excel.. and econs was a muddle as usual.. the tutor couldnt understand wat me and melvin were saying.. lol..

Went for the SB Exco Club interview today.. the wait in the waiting room was long but the interview was short.. they ask things like what have u planned before and describe yourself and all that.. answered all their question and than left the room. Results would be out at night. Met new friends while in the waiting room.. lets see, there's Shiyan from DTRM, Vivian and Wei Li? from DBA, Adeline from DFI and of course felicia..

Results came out and i got in.. now i'm hesitating.. don noe if i want to accept the post or not. I want to have something more, but the way the lecturers are saying.. i would be too busy until i do not have time to join other stuff.. and i might want to go for SPSU also.. oh well..

opportunities are there,
for us to grab on to,
once it pass us,
its gone for ever

Restlessness

Ok, i don noe if there's such a word as in my title but who cares.. lol.. been feeling that way ever since school started. its like there's something missing ba.. like too little things to do de.. not use to that kind of feeling.. 2mr..

2mr i got to go for a SB Club interview.. and the lecturer told me this. If i'm selected, i wouldnt have time to even have a gf.. as of now, i never go and think abt this kinda things.. but, is it really going to be that busy??

I don noe if this is the life that i wan, haiz.. sometimes feel quite lost and out of touch with myself. I believe that everyone has a inner self inside them and its sometimes hard to maintain contact with it when we are too caught up with our life and all thats happening.

Been talking to people, my age, older than me, younger than me.. seems like the feeling has always been there in everyone, some people found ways to deal with it. some let it destory them from within. its killing me. literally.

Faces, which person doesnt have them? everyone is born with one face. But as we grow up, more and more faces are added. until we cant even recognize ourselves anymore.. but it only takes one person, the one that we have always been waiting for. to take a brush, and gently brush alway the paint, the mask and to reveal once more to the world the face that we were born with and to tell us that its alright to be who we are and to face the world proudly..

As Robert Frost once said:
In 3 words, I can sum up everything i have learnt about life. It goes on.

The Leader

If only they knew how hard it is for me .
I'm turning 16, the world i begin to see.
My friends begin to change, right before my eyes,
and now they seem to laugh, and tell all sorts of lies.
They hang around in groups of three or four;
the language they use... it isn't gentle anymore.
The kids that seem most lonely wind up in their pack,
and those that stand alone, they talk behind their back.
Somehow i feel rejected because i don't conform.
Those that step to their own beat doesn't seem to be the norm.
I've watched a few just fade away, with drugs and alcohol;
and many more have given up, too many to recall.
Alcohol is an option for everyone in my school.
I've lost a friend to booze again; i will not be a fool.
And sex, it seems so open, for everyone to explore.
Three girls i know that came to school don't come here anymore.
If only i could make a difference, what could I do or say?
I would go to school and try my best each and every day.
There is one thing I'd like to do before i graduate.
I'd like to touch them one by one before its too late.

By Tony Overman (Chicken Soup for the Teenage Soul)


Meaningful and something to think about.. and all these.. can be seen in the world around me.. Its happening right now and sometimes i do wonder, will all this come to the point where everyone is falling?

lessons and more

Going to skip all the intro part, anything that anyone want to know abt me, ask me directly. Thanks. And don ask why isnt there a tagboard. Just leave a comment if u wan.

Its officially the third week of school. And somethings that i realize is that everyday is spent waiting for the day to end. But, after the last lesson, everyone would be wondering where to go and what to do. Cause its like there's nothing to do and nowhere to go.

Anyway, today had only two lessons, POA and ITB. POA was as usual spent listening to the lecturer talking abt his stuff. And his super long winded. Ask him one question, he can talk a lot.. -_-

Next up, ITB, that is a retarded module. All the programming that we are doing, my sis told me that when u join a hotel to work, what we need are the basic programming. Reason being that there are templates for us to follow already. And even if u get stuck and all that.. there's something called IT services in each company that is supposed to help u with all these problems.. oh well, lucky its only for one semaster and not a year long module.. haiz.

Went to the main library after the last lesson with nigel. Talk a lot of crap with him.. some important crap and some real crap.. by that time, it was already like 6pm le.. nowhere to go so decided to go home early for once..

i think that there's still POA tutorial to be look at and also econs to look at. NOt forgetting my group work.. I need to go look at the cutural aspect of GREECE.. oh well.. hope that everything would be fine..

Suddenly,
its getting harder,
to see the path,
that we are suppose to walk..